Oh no!

So I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving, I know I truly was thankful to spend time with our family. Also, I ate a ton of food! :)

This past Saturday morning, while I was getting ready to go to work, I started bleeding. 1,000 thoughts ran through my mind......Oh NO, this can't be! How can we go through so much and then this starts now?!...There is never anything good that comes out of bleeding while you are pregnant... As I tried to hold back the tears, it wasn't happening... I completely lost it. It is so amazing how attached you become to the little one, even at 12 weeks 3 days. I felt like I was loosing it all, my heart was broken. Josh had already left the house that morning and in my head I couldn't decided if I should call him and tell him. My thoughts were "I don't want to worry him anymore than I am if I tell him right now....But if I don't tell him now, he wouldn't be happy with me." Of course I called him, and I am so glad he remained calm because it sure was hard for me. The bleeding turned into spotting, which made me feel a little better. I decided to continue on and go to work, and call the on call doctor as soon as I got to work.

I definitely wasn't in my cheerful mood on the way to work, I just felt as if something was right. As soon as I got there, I called the answering service and awaited anxiously for a call back. Ten minutes later, my phone rings and it is Dr. Risinger. I haven't met her as a patient, but I have met her while working and have heard nothing but wonderful things about her. I was so relieved just to have a call back, I told her everything that had happened that morning and she told me she wanted to see me. She just so happen to be at the hospital, how convenient! She needed to see all her patients in the hospital and called me as soon as she had seen everyone and told me to meet her at the office. Luckily, the office is connected to the Children's hospital so just a short stroll and I was there.

Dr. Risinger walked me straight back to the ultrasound machine.. and immediately little one was waving at us on the screen! Baby still had a strong heartbeat. As she continued looking around, Dr. Risinger stated that we have a very photogenic and active baby. What a relief!! Turns out I had a subchorionic bleed. Which basically from everything that I have read means that a small part of the placenta tears from the uterine wall and a small blood clot develops. She didn't seem too concerned and mentioned this is one of the most common causes of bleeding during pregnancy, said that it should resolve on it and I may see spotting up until 16 weeks. I was told to take it easy, which is easy to do at home...not so much at work! Boy, you have NO idea how much relief it was to see little one still bouncing around and still looking fabulous. I was terrified that I would have to wait for my appointment on Monday morning, which I think I would have gone insane constantly thinking what was going on in there.